I Need to Grow

Things have been a little hectic around here.
That’s the one (somewhat) downside to homeschooling, where other mom’s are enjoying a little more freedom with school starting back up, homeschooling moms have another full time job added to their plate. I have to admit, it’s been a rocky re-entry to school life.

Here’s what I’ve learned in my first two weeks: IMG_1552

1) My previous schedule of doing school in the afternoon when my 2 year old naps doesn’t work, because the baby naps better in the morning and not so good in the afternoon.

2) My 4 year old could totally hang with her brother’s kindergarten assignments last year, but this year, he is outpacing her.

3) My business and my team was growing last school year, but now it’s BOOMING and taking more of my time, which is awesome, except the time it’s taking is the time I used to spend doing laundry and cleaning the house.

This morning I woke up in a mild panic attack as we start week three of our school year, wondering how I can stay on top of everything. I looked at the overflowing laundry situation and the loooong to-do list that I was planning to put a dent in last night until I passed out unexpectedly simply because I decided to sit down for a minute after I put the kids to bed. I started letting thoughts take root in my mind. Thoughts like: “I can’t do this.” “I’m barely surviving.” “I’m letting everyone down!”

In the past this would have prompted me to lower my goals. Maybe I shouldn’t push for this big goal in my business? Maybe I should just do the bare minimum with my kid’s in school this year and not follow through with the fun projects I planned? Maybe I should put on more TV for the kids?

But one thing I’ve been learning is that instead of lowering my goals when things get difficult, to raise my level of activity and energy and planning and skill. Instead of saying “I can’t do this” start saying “I need to grow.” Because that is the truth – I actually can’t do this where I am NOW, but I surely can GROW. I surely can figure out what doesn’t work and try something new. I surely can make adjustments and find what works for me!

This mindset shift is EVERYTHING. I am learning to lean into the storm instead of shrinking back. I am learning that just because something is hard and I’m not CRUSHINl./G it right from the get-go, doesn’t mean I can’t learn and get better and make it work.

What kind of example would this be for my kids, if I gave up the minute things became difficult? I want to show them that just because something is hard doesn’t mean we pull back, it means we attack it with GREATER energy so we can conquer it.

I know life isn’t easy, I know it knocks you down, but don’t let that EVER convince you that you can’t accomplish hard things – you can -IF- you are willing to GROW.


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